In today's world it is so easy to find yourself questioning your own beliefs, morals and convictions; but nothing has ever challenged my faith the way that Infertility has.
In the years we have been struggling to conceive our first child I have found myself mad at God, hurt by God, questioning Gods plan or if there even was a "plan".
I found myself struggling with my relationship with God because I didn't know how to accept this challenge that he had given me. "Its not fair" I would say, "No one should have to suffer this way to have a child when so many who take their children for granted get them so easily."
"Why" I asked that question more times that I can count and there are days when I still ask it..The only answer I have come up with? -because I am strong and independent and I know that God will never give me more than I can handle. I am fairly certain this is the only time I have ever wished I was a weaker person.
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